Updateme0 aka Grachi Writes

     Guys, guys, guys, guys hear me out. 3 years is quite a long time and I have thought whether to quit or continue and it took me three years to decide. I know what you might be thinking "But why?". So, here's why BUT WHY? Before I start if you are reading this, this your sign not to quit or give up on yourself and your dreams I mean it!!       I started blogging 2019 and I was loving it so much, at first I was doing it for the money but later on I enjoyed writing, but it began to get stressful and hard with school and what I was going through.  Firstly, it all started with "L ow self esteem",   for years I struggled with it, I felt like what I was doing wasn't good enough and I should just drop it and focus on my studies (mind you I wasn't so bright educationally but I am talented) continuation : neither was I in a healthy environment ( I mean an environment where it was toxic and no form of motivation. I was young I knew nothing ...

You know  Then. I wish I knew, I was beautiful I wish I knew I was was good enough I wish I knew I was overpowered, I wish I knew there was nothing wrong with me, when you kept leaving. I wish I knew You only took advantage of my dotting heart walking away knowing fully well I would open the door once again when you come back, I wish I knew what it was like to be loved, I wish I knew I wasn't weak those night's I cried, I wish I knew how much I was hurting myself for you I wish I knew how to love myself more I wish I knew what it was like to be happy I wish I knew happiness starts from within  I wish I knew it was okay to be naive because I was only 18 (A Teen) I wish I knew being sweet and nice wasn't a bad thing because it was I wish I knew what it was like to have self confidence I wish I knew I broke me for you not knowing I would lose myself completely I wish I knew your words were filled with lies and manipulation I wish I knew the day we met you would ...

I wrote this quote  Saying  "It's okay to dream big,  But it's not okay if you don't bring it to reality". We live in a world filled with misery, pain and sorrow. Where the rich get richer and the poor get poorer. The weak get weaker and the strong get stronger.      Now let me get to the point,  you have to stop making excuses on why life is hard, why you can't follow or chase your dreams, thinking of where to start from but you don't know where too start from, Saying there is no hope for you but the truth is you just have to start, it is when you start you would know if there is hope or not. We all battle with a very Deep word that affects our daily life. "PROCRASTINATION".        Firstly, what is Procrastination? Procrastination is the act of delaying and  postponing something. A simple word for it is Laziness. This has affected our daily life till date and i know it is inevitable but the truth is if you don't le...

I'm stuck in the " In-Between" Of  "love" and "hate" The "I miss you" and "the moving on" Between  Loving' myself more  And  Loving you more  Between The "truths and the lies" Between  Trying to live my life  And  Trying to run from it  Between Being found And  Finding myself  Between The first day we met  And  The last time you said good bye Between  If it's meant to be  And   If you want it go get it. Hey, This is me every night Getting stuck And lost in thoughts Wondering how I'm gonna get through Asking myself if all your words were true. Sometimes I think back and i...... just smile  And sometimes.... I just Cry  Remembering the bittersweet moment. And the hurt of your words. Like  I was supposed to be there for me  But I, I gave you all my love  The love I was afraid to give  I was so naive, so fragile That you folded my love as a cone Breaking and leaving...

I sit by the corner of my room As I look through my window I begin to wonder and ponder  As my thoughts rushes in  Holding my book and pen  as my mind is same as dead. But.. there is this one thought that's comes in and it  goes like  "Just write" Just write even if it doesn't make sense, Just write even of it's little Just write and prove to yourself that you can. "For there is beautiful in every perfectly imperfect work of art" I do say this to people Everyone can write,  you can do anything if you put your mind to it. There were days, weeks and months, I tried to write like my friend who could write way better than me , I was also obsessed trying to write like William Shakespeare, Charles Dickens and James Joyce. Until I decided to be myself and have my way if writing and I said to myself, "Just write" "Just write  "Just write" Nothing good comes easy and it isn't easy to write  Sometim...

I came back from School  Feeling so angry  Wishing I could just smile once and for all. I took off cloths  Feeling exhausted Wishing this feelings could go once and for all. I go to the bathroom  As I take a shower  I laid in the bathtub to ease up my feels or think about it But anytime I stay long  Begin to think of my problems  Wondering where I went so wrong.  But  Chorus  There's a way that I could fight it  Reading books, or crying all day  Strolling out  or watching nature But it never Ends  Maybe go to the movies  Or maybe art galleries Maybe get drunk in a party  I guess that would do  For my thoughts. Verse 2 Before Saturday  That day of my birthday I got off from School so I could plan it all I danced through the night Anticipating the D-Day  Thinking  of where to go in my mind  I checked out my dress As I looked in the mirror  Feeling so insecure of my wei...