𝘐 𝘞π˜ͺ𝘴𝘩 𝘐 π˜’π˜―π˜¦π˜Έ 𝘭𝘭 𝘚𝘱𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘰𝘳π˜₯ 𝘱𝘰𝘦𝘡𝘳𝘺

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You know 
Then.
I wish I knew, I was beautiful
I wish I knew I was was good enough
I wish I knew I was overpowered,
I wish I knew there was nothing wrong with me, when you kept leaving.
I wish I knew You only took advantage of my dotting heart walking away knowing fully well I would open the door once again when you come back,
I wish I knew what it was like to be loved,
I wish I knew I wasn't weak those night's I cried,
I wish I knew how much I was hurting myself for you
I wish I knew how to love myself more
I wish I knew what it was like to be happy
I wish I knew happiness starts from within 
I wish I knew it was okay to be naive because I was only 18 (A Teen)
I wish I knew being sweet and nice wasn't a bad thing because it was
I wish I knew what it was like to have self confidence
I wish I knew I broke me for you not knowing I would lose myself completely
I wish I knew your words were filled with lies and manipulation
I wish I knew the day we met you would be a disaster in my life 
I wish I knew you took away my smile filling it with sadness, darkness and pain.
I wish I knew I was happy before I met you
I wish I knew I was a whole before you broke me.
But thank you for those moments it made me stronger, I might have regretted being with you but I once loved you.
But  it is time I love myself and be myself.
I wish I knew I wish I knew.
I am 20
And now I know.


       I was still a young girl learning and observing life although I went through alot emotionally and mentally but it made me stronger, my writings also helped me get through.
"𝘐 𝘞π˜ͺ𝘴𝘩 𝘐 π˜’π˜―π˜¦π˜Έ" is talking about my past because I struggled with self confidence, I looked down on myself so much and I felt I wasn't good enough. But I'm glad that I'm learning to love myself and do what makes me happy. Don't let your partner be it a man or a woman be the reason for your sadness, you deserve better and you deserve to be happy. Know that happiness starts with you, it comes from within and I want you to know that you aren't alone and you are loved.
Check out the spoken word video.https://youtu.be/LcSsM_KZGa8



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