π˜›π˜©π˜¦ 𝘐𝘯-π˜‰π˜¦π˜΅π˜Έπ˜¦π˜¦π˜― 𝘭𝘭 𝘚𝘱𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘰𝘳π˜₯ 𝘱𝘰𝘦𝘡𝘳𝘺

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I'm stuck in the
" In-Between"
Of 
"love" and "hate"
The
"I miss you" and "the moving on"
Between 
Loving' myself more 
And 
Loving you more 
Between
The "truths and the lies"
Between 
Trying to live my life 
And 
Trying to run from it 
Between
Being found
And 
Finding myself 
Between
The first day we met 
And 
The last time you said good bye
Between 
If it's meant to be 
And  
If you want it go get it.

Hey,
This is me every night
Getting stuck
And lost in thoughts
Wondering how I'm gonna get through
Asking myself if all your words were true.
Sometimes I think back and i...... just smile 
And sometimes.... I just Cry 
Remembering the bittersweet moment.
And the hurt of your words.

Like 

I was supposed to be there for me 
But I, I gave you all my love 
The love I was afraid to give 
I was so naive, so fragile
That you folded my love as a cone
Breaking and leaving me all alone 
I racked and racked my brain 
Blaming myself for your mistakes
Breaking myself and Going through pains
But they say(My friends) "Let go" ain't that what it takes. 
It felt like a competition choosing 
Between you and I, 
Between letting you go and finding myself again,
Between your happiness and my happiness.
I hate you,
I hate you,
I hate you.
I loved you in a way I shouldn't have 
But I'm moving on now 
Maybe,
I'm gonna keep getting 
Stuck in the between 
like how I get dejavu.


So I wrote this middle of September. Realizing everything I went through and knowing I was never at fault I was naive and fragile then which made them take advantage of my feelings but later one I moved on and learned to keep my heart less, I decided and choose to start loving myself and till date I have no regrets for loving myself because it has been a beautiful journey for me. I know sometimes it sucks when the one you love, leaves, making you feel worthless and not enough even after all you did for them but I want you to know that it isn't the end of the world and better things will come. Love yourself and be happy. You come First!!
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