𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘐𝘯-𝘉𝘦𝘵𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘭𝘭 𝘚𝘱𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥 𝘱𝘰𝘦𝘵𝘳𝘺

I'm stuck in the

" In-Between"

"love" and "hate"

The

"I miss you" and "the moving on"

Between

Loving' myself more

And

Loving you more

Between

The "truths and the lies"

Between

Trying to live my life

And

Trying to run from it

Between

Being found

And

Finding myself

Between

The first day we met

And

The last time you said good bye

Between

If it's meant to be

And

If you want it go get it.

Hey,

This is me every night

Getting stuck

And lost in thoughts

Wondering how I'm gonna get through

Asking myself if all your words were true.

Sometimes I think back and i...... just smile

And sometimes.... I just Cry

Remembering the bittersweet moment.

And the hurt of your words.

I was supposed to be there for me

But I, I gave you all my love

The love I was afraid to give

I was so naive, so fragile

That you folded my love as a cone

Breaking and leaving me all alone

I racked and racked my brain

Blaming myself for your mistakes

Breaking myself and Going through pains

But they say(My friends) "Let go" ain't that what it takes.

It felt like a competition choosing

Between you and I,

Between letting you go and finding myself again,

Between your happiness and my happiness.

I hate you,

I hate you.

I loved you in a way I shouldn't have

But I'm moving on now

Maybe,

I'm gonna keep getting

Stuck in the between

like how I get dejavu.

So I wrote this middle of September. Realizing everything I went through and knowing I was never at fault I was naive and fragile then which made them take advantage of my feelings but later one I moved on and learned to keep my heart less, I decided and choose to start loving myself and till date I have no regrets for loving myself because it has been a beautiful journey for me. I know sometimes it sucks when the one you love, leaves, making you feel worthless and not enough even after all you did for them but I want you to know that it isn't the end of the world and better things will come. Love yourself and be happy. You come First!!

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𝘐 𝘞𝘪𝘴𝘩 𝘐 𝘒𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘭𝘭 𝘚𝘱𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥 𝘱𝘰𝘦𝘵𝘳𝘺

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